Stay Up With Me

Afraid to say id like it very much if
You’d stay and lose sleep with me tonight"
Not my misery needing company it is
Just me i might
Not feel lonely on most days
But tonight reminds me of Summer
Reminds me that i have and am not
A kid now, and that i am missing a brother
Go to call a sister
His name is right with hers
I haven’t deleted his number
I don’t want to tell you all
That he meant to me
And have you say how you wish you’d met him
I don’t want to cry and confess
" now i feel as time passes by
I’ll forget him " and you look at me like
"I wish I could help"
But your father was there
And you’ve always had help
And your brother’s still calling
And you’ve always been dealt

With aces and high hands
And silver fucking platters
The audacity the nerve
To ask me "whats the matter?"
And if i were really in the mood to discuss
I would tell you how i
Never felt like enough
How i was the ugly one hated the mirror
And took lots of pills that one night
Trynna kill her if i had the energy
I’d tell you the truth
That i haven’t been happy
Since I was in school like, elementary
Even then… shit was crazy
I was the youngest but the toughest
I was never the baby
So i don’t want your pity or your words
Or advice i’d just like it very much if
You lost sleep with me tonight