Sometimes

The blessing's never late, so I'ma give it a raise
My daddy told me happiness is something that you create
But I ain't feeling so creatively lately
I just wanna stay home and make beats
Or sleep for eight weeks
Either way, now my whole life feelin' cooler
Now I know that passport's get thick when it's fuller
And this life thing don't really come with a ruler
Man, so I'm not trippin' that I still don't have my own jeweler, yet

In other words, I don't like to compare
I just turned 20, but my goal's to feel 28
Without the back pain, stress, and the problems in bed
Just the achievements, wisdom, and the couple of friends
Until then, I'll be like movies with no plot, yeah, the bad ones
I skip the drama and get right to the action
Fuck lookin' for enemies, I got more friends than BROCKHAMPTON
They give me honest opinions, I don't deal with the gassin', man

Feelin' like I ain't shit sometimes
I expect too much sometimes
Tell myself gotta move on with life
'Cause even Drake gets booed sometimes, hey
I'm done livin' in disguise
Not everybody's perfect every time
'Bout to make sure 2020 lookin' real nice
Can't depend on nobody else to get myself right and

I don't know if what I'm doing's right
It feels good, so guess it's fine
You don't like it, we can fight
If you can't tell, I'm done with tellin' lies
Done with tears up in my eyes
I ain't fakin' no more smiles
There you go

It ain't a walk in the park, I prefer to run, run, run, run
I don't care that I fell, I'ma make this jump, jump, jump, jump
Even if I don't, I became too numb, numb, numb
Even if I fall, least I'm havin' fun

Used to never go to the parties
Used to never wanna drink the Bacardi's
Wouldn't do it if my parents allowed it
Also 'cause I used to hate when it's crowded
(Things change)
She told me that she ran out of condoms
Told her that I never do it without it
I don't wanna get too detailed about it
But we all broke a rule for somebody
Like once, twice, three times
Things don't change when you try to be wise
People still trash when you try to be nice
So don't expect me to fake any more smiles for you
I got real smiles to save
If I'm debutin' my acting, then I better get paid
Because this face ain't free
The lies ain't free
Matter of fact, I need to get paid just to be me, but

Feelin' like I ain't shit sometimes
I expect too much sometimes
Feelin' like I forget what's mine
These lies ain't feelin' so white
I'm done livin' in disguise
That everybody's perfect every time
'Bout to make sure 2020 lookin' real nice
Can't depend on nobody else to get myself right and

I don't know if what I'm doing's right
It feels good, so guess it's fine
You don't like it, we can fight
If you can't tell, I'm done with tellin' lies
Done with tears up in my eyes
I ain't fakin' no more smiles
There you go

It ain't a walk in the park, I prefer to run, run, run, run
I don't care that I fell, I'ma make this jump, jump, jump, jump
Even if I don't, I became too numb, numb, numb
Even if I fall, least I'm havin' fun

I don't know if what I'm doing's right
It feels good, so guess it's fine
You don't like it, we can fight
If you can't tell, I'm done with tellin' lies
Done with tears up in my eyes
I ain't fakin' no more smiles