Honestly Honest

It’s ages later, I’m still scarred
Beat up and twisted in my views of who you are
Things don’t get stranger than the strangeness of
A change of heart
And who am I
To argue when I don’t know where you’re coming from?

Do you still see my face before you close your eyes at night, and
Am I still someone you can use
To measure up your new love to?

Wasted occasions in this life
Of mine would be?
Too few to mention if they didn’t take up all my time
I’m crushed to see the stuff that only love can do
To love, is it enough
To want for better things
When wanting’s all you’ve got?

Do you still say my name before you close your eyes at night, and
Am I still someone you abuse in conversations about?

Trust me, I’m happy
I’m glad that you left me
I want to be happy
You just don’t make me so
You can go

If I’m honestly honest, this is not what I wanted
The truth is I got it
Now I don’t want it
I’m with you, without you
Now that I found you
I’m scared of being scared, of you not being here
Now and then
I pretend
You and I are something more than friends (Honestly)
(I still believe this is meant to be)
(Oh, honestly, I still believe)
(I still believe this is meant to be)
(Oh, honestly)

It’s ages later I’m still scarred (Trust me I’m happy)
(I'm glad that you left me)
Things don’t get stranger than the strangeness of
A change of heart

So trust me I’m happy
Glad that you left me
Want to be happy
But you just don’t make me so
You can go

If I’m honestly honest, this is not what I wanted
The truth is I got it
Now I don’t want it
I’m with you, without you
Now that I found you
I’m scared of being scared of you not being here

If I’m honestly honest, this is not what I wanted
The truth is I got it
Now I don’t want it
I’m with you, without you
Now that I found you
I’m scared of being scared, of being scared of being scared, of being
Scared