This Can’t Be Life

Geah whassup?
To all my street niggas, project niggas
Real niggas, worldwide
Let's reflect, everybody got a story
We all ghetto B, here's mine geah

See I was, born in sewage
Born to make bomb music
Flow tight like I was born Jewish
Used the streets as a conduit
I kept arms 38 longs inside my mom's Buick
At any given moment Shawn could lose it
Be on the news iron cuffs - arms through it
Or stuffed with embalming fluid
Shit, I'm going through it - mom dukes too
Tears streaming down her pretty face
She got her palms to it
My life is getting too wild
I need to bring some sort calm to it
Bout to lose it voices
Screaming "Don't do it!"
It's like '93, '94, 'bout the year
That Big and Mack dropped and Illmatic rocked
Outta every rag drop
And the West had it locked
Everybody doing them
I'm still stretching on the block
Like "Damn, I'ma be a failure"
Surrounded by thugs, drugs
And drug paraphernalia cops, courts
And their thoughts is to derail us
Three-time felons in shorts
With jealous thoughts
Trying to figure where your mail is
Guesstimate the weight you selling
So they can send shots straight
To your melon wait!
It gets worse, baby momma water burst
Baby came out stillborn
Still I gotta move on
Though my heart still torn
Life gone from her womb
Don't worry, if it was meant to be
It'll be soon

This can't be life, this can't be love
This can't be right, there's gotta be more
This can't be us
This can't be life, this can't be love
This can't be right, there's gotta be more
This can't be us

Chill dog second oldest born
From Michelle Brown my mother hell bound
Grew with two sisters and one brother
Pop wasn't around
So many stories that's another
I'm thinking damn how my older
Sister going make me tougher
When steel sharpens steel, I'ma keep it real
I'm tired of trying to hide my
Pain behind the syrups and pills
Dead to the world
Stretched out like a corpse for real
Y'all niggas thinking what y'all reading
In The Source is real
What my life like, you looking at the source
It's real what your life like? Mine dog
Of course it's real passing judgment
You niggas second-guessing Beans
'Cause you don't eat swine
Don't make you Mu'min
Dog you know a couple suras, out the Qur'an
I guess you all on your din
And I ain't on mine stop that Akki
'fore I send shots through your body
Make 'em feel hell on earth
Before Allah drop me
I feel the line's drawn here
Nutting more can stop me
'Til them feds pick me up
Or them boys pop me
There's only three things that make
Mack not act like Beans
Amatullah Tisha, Po Aldin, Samir Amin
My seeds dog, gotta teach 'em
That before I leave, dog
Shit I know that I'ma see 'em when I leave
Dog i come back in the afterlife
Like fuck it
I done touched hell twice what's the meaning?

This can't be life, this can't be love
This can't be right, there's gotta be more
This can't be us
This can't be life, this can't be love
This can't be right, there's gotta be more
This can't be us

Life yeah uhh now as I walk into the studio
To do this with Jig'
I got a phone call from one of my nigs
Said my homeboy Reek
He just lost one of his kids
And when I heard that I just broke into tears
And see in the second hand you
Don't really know how this is
But when it hit's that close to home
You feel the pain at the crib
So I called mine
And saddened my wife with the bad news
Now we both depressed
Counting our blessings 'cause Brad's two
Praying for young souls to laugh
At life through the stars
Loving your kids just like you was ours
And I'm hurting for you dog but
Ain't nobody pain is like yours
I just know that heaven'll open these doors
And ain't no bright side to losing life
But you can view it like this
God's got open hands homie
He in the midst of good company
Who loves all and hates not one
And one day you gon' be with your son
I could've rapped about my hard
Times on this song
But heaven knows I woulda been wrong
I wouldn'ta been right
It wouldn'ta been love
It wouldn'ta been life, it wouldn'ta been us
This can't be life

This can't be life, this can't be love
This can't be right, there's gotta be more
This can't be us
This can't be life, this can't be love
This can't be right, there's gotta be more
This can't be us this can't be life