VICE

Lately I been sitting back reflecting on my life
Cause all my peers are having kids and married with a wife
Like am I doing the right things just to suffice
Like did I give it my all before I make the sacrifice
Thoughts up in my head, welcome to the Q&A
I just got the questions, I don't got the answers Sway
Celebrate the small wins I made it through the day
Depression creeping up like it's using me as prey
The pressure peakin up so I bow my head and pray
Hoping God see me not like Stevie or Ray
This weight up on my shoulders feel like boulders since I'm older
Tryna keep it steady since I'm ready for some closure
I take a step back cause shit is not what it seem
Pull the layers back so you can see what I mean
Had me losing focus like I'm locked in the screen
A bad dream, couldn't see God came in between
Had to trust my faith I couldn't doubt it
Demons in my way I can't allow it
Blessings on the way I couldn't count it
Stress is in the way I'm moving mountains
What am I doing wrong, got me feeling so alone
What am I doing right, thats gon make my future bright
Maybe I'm just trippin need to take my own advice
Maybe it's the drugs that I'm using as a vice
What am I doing wrong, got me feeling so alone
What am I doing right, thats gon make my future bright
Maybe I'm just trippin need to take my own advice
Maybe it's the drugs that I'm using as a vice
It's a scary thought bringing a life into this world
Thinkin about it now just be making my stomach twirl
Maybe I'm afraid that I just won't be enough
Maybe I'm afraid that I just can't give them much
What if my little mans having problems like me
Passing down my traits now he got anxiety
What if my little girl always getting her feelings hurt
Cause she down to earth so they treat her like some dirt
All these questions got me thinkin bout my dad now
Like tell me what was on your mind when you ran out
Maybe that's why I'm so afraid to be a pops too
Cause I remember all those times that I watched you
What if we fall out of love just like yall
What if the only time we talk is when I call
What if she change up on me out the blue
What if she put me on child support too
Had to trust my faith I couldn't doubt it
Demons in my way I can't allow it
Blessings on the way I couldn't count it
Stress is in the way I'm moving mountains
What am I doing wrong, got me feeling so alone
What am I doing right, thats gon make my future bright
Maybe I'm just trippin need to take my own advice
Maybe it's the drugs that I'm using as a vice
What am I doing wrong, got me feeling so alone
What am I doing right, thats gon make my future bright
Maybe I'm just trippin need to take my own advice
Maybe it's the drugs that I'm using as a vice