TRYIN ME

Tryna feel the sun but the dark clouds follow
One on one with my thoughts then I feel sorrow
Live for today but ima pray for tomorrow
Hoping God sending blessings all by the carload
Praying every night now, it's a fight now
Evil on my mind now, demons find out
Take a pen and pad and let these thoughts out
I let it all out, let it all out yeah
Trendsetter yeah yeah trendsetter
Niggas feeling down now niggas feelin better
Big steppa yeah yeah big steppa
Had to be the one in the fam that had to step up
Doing it on my own so you know I gotta grind
Doing it on my own so you know I gotta shine
Doing it on my own so I can't waste no time
Doing it on my own until this shit gon be mine
Why they trying me why they tryin me
I don't understand why they tryin me
Why they trying me why they tryin me
I don't understand why they tryin me
Why they trying me why they tryin me
I don't understand why they tryin me
Why they trying me why they tryin me
I don't understand why they tryin me
What's funny ain't shit fucking funny
Had to flip a pack to get my mama dirty money
Bagging up these O's like its honey cheerios
Bagging up these hoes like gimme 3 of those
Did I did I stutter I came from the gutter
Talkin to yo chick boy I'm smooth like butter
Pedal to the metal I promise I won't let up
Shoutout to the real ones that told me keep my head up
Walking with a hand out they want a handout
I was down bad they ain't put a hand out
Drowning in the deep end the reaper reaping
Tired of being on the fence playing defense
All this shit that's in my head now
I done been through so much shit now
Oh traumatized, yeah PTSD now
Internalized, starting to know what it mean now
Why they trying me why they tryin me
I don't understand why they tryin me
Why they trying me why they tryin me
I don't understand why they tryin me
Why they trying me why they tryin me
I don't understand why they tryin me
Why they trying me why they tryin me
I don't understand why they tryin me
It's been a week yeah since I rolled some weed yeah
Niggas talkin like they know it, they don't know it yeah
They don't know me yeah, they don't care yeah
But they hear this track bobbin all they heads yeah
I been putting all my pain in these songs now
I been doing so much right to balance wrong now
I been tryna change my ways since I'm grown now
It's not what you used to know it's what you know now
I was a born sinner now I'm a breadwinner
Winner winner chicken dinner now I'm in there
I hope you understand now I'm the man now
Use to talk about me now they in my phone now
Trying so hard to stay calm and humble
Fighting on my own and it felt like Royal Rumble
Gonna claim my throne cause this is what I worked for
Even Stevie Wonder can see that I'm a workhorse
Why they tryin me, why they tryin me
I don't understand why they tryin me
Why they tryin me, why they tryin me
I don't understand why they tryin me
Ohhh, Ohhh, Ohhh
Tryin me