I’m Not Okay But I Know I’m Going To Be

I’m not okay, but I know I’m gunna be,
You don’t need to ask me why, I just know I’ll be alright,
I’ve got a life, laid out in front of me,
That I can’t take away, it’s just the rain,
There’ll be brighter days,

I’m not okay, but I know I’m gunna be,
I may have lost my way again,
But I’ll get there in the end,
I’ve been through the lowest lows,
The highest highs, the sweet hellos and the sad goodbyes,
I’ll let it out, if I need to cry,
Cos I’ll make it out, the other side,

I just know, I just know,
I just know, know know know know,

I’m not okay, but I know I’m gunna be,
Cos I’m a person, not an island,
So I search for the horizon,
I can see it, right in front of me,
But I need to start at the beginning,
Fight with the tide and keep swimming,

I’m winning when I see life’s an ocean, through the motions,
Hard to ride the waves,
I see in black and white, I guess I was colourblind,

Fuck hangovers, I’ll try yoga,
Let my body break,
It’s a sacrifice, but I know there’s paradise, on the other side,

I just know, I just know,
I just know, no no no,

I lost my way again
I’ll get there in the end

I have good days and bad days,
Can’t days and can days, boy days and man days, these days and them days, butch days and femme days, Mondays and wednesdays, junk days and health days, I hate myself days, more days and less days, head, back and neck pain, stones in my chest days,
No one said it would be easy,
But I need to try,

In the daylight tears dry,
Even when it hurts, inside,
I’ll just take one day at a time