SPRING

I charish love deeply until I lost the feeling 
The circumstances I was in was truly unforgiving 
I gave it all to a queen I really thought was fitting 
But we dont even talk no more communication Slipping 
Now I'm building up  walls that people never Breaching 
And you could call it what you want my self esteem Was weakened 
I put my pride to side 
Don't know what I was thinking 
I guess reality is stronger then dreams 
Made myself believe that we was a thing 
I needed clarity 
Now I'm drinking liquor with niggas I really hate to Be
Feeling this option that would numb all the pain
Take my breath away from this girl Mary Jane 
Fishing in the ocean that these people often speak of
It never do work me
Always did the worst for me 
Ever fish I cought I had to throw it back in 
I'm convinced everything I had fling
It's rare to catch me venting bout my issue 
That's my issue 
I'm so stubborn with it 
I never share my feeling 
I keep it locked up in the cubbert
Where it shall remain to be 
For all eternity 
Spring suppose to be the time we come alive 
Lately all the love inside my heart has died
Spring suppose to be the time we come alive
Lately all the love inside my heart has died
I'm like f that I cant show no love because 
They heartless 
I might fall back into a pit of darkness aint no calling
Lost my contacts, now I can not reimburse my losses
Ain't no call backs I just get the dial tone for the longest
Where your thoughts at, erase all your memories like what dont recall that 
Funny how some people love you only when you spend cash 
Till they find somebody else balling then they draw Back 
Boy I find it funny how they draw back 
Imagine me tryna steal a person energy 
When all they gave me was there love and positives 
And I abuse it for somebody else thats into me 
So i ignore them tryna channel somthing differently 
And that went sideways oh yeah that went sideways 
Knowing are potential could a spark a human Alignment 
Always kept it passive, I was showing to much 
Reveling all my weakness, guessed I cared to much 
Misery
Misery
Misery truly loves company 
I always peeped
I always peeped
How you came around and stole my energy 
Run little one run little one run 
Run little one run little one run
Run little one run little one run
Run little one
Dopamine that dopamine that dopamine that dope
Dopamine that dopamine that dopamine that dope
Dopamine that dopamine that dopamine that dope
Fire burning 
Passion and desire got my feeling going
Fire burning 
Never found a love that could be eternal 
Fire burning 
Passion and desire got my feelings going
Fire burning
Tell me what Is real is it color coded