SCARLET (voice memo)

Got used to talking to myself
Cuz without it there was no sound
Filled the silent room with easy melodies
To keep myself from overthinking every little thing
But maybe it didn't matter anyway
Because it always ended in the same way
I begged to dream so I dreamt
Until my eyes bled scarlet red
But then I thought about what it all meant
And how I'm more afraid of success
Got used to talking to myself
Cuz without it there was no one else
I only know what I know
And I'm scared of the things I don't
So what if nothing ever changed
Well at least I'd know it'd end the same
I begged to dream so I dreamt
Until my eyes bled scarlet red
But then I thought about what it all meant
And how I'm more afraid of success
Am I okay with living this small
At least it wouldn't be as big of a fall
Dreaming; a double-edged sword
Does it really compare to what is really out there
Go, choose fear, it's better to hide
Can't even look in a mirror so why should I try
Trying to convince me that I'm not crazy
I begged to dream so I dreamt
Until my eyes bled their scarlet red
But then I thought about what it all meant
And how I'm more afraid