As I Go (voice memo)

I'm disconnected
I've tried all your little methods
Joined pottery to feel better
It's not your fault
I feel neglected
Don't ask me what I am
I don't even know
Don't ask me who I am
It changes as I go
Look up, you're medicated
Time to get out of the bed
Start on what they ask of you
Try to get out of your head
"What have you been up to"
Maybe then I'd have an answer
Whatever I'm trying to do
Everyone else is doing it faster
Don't ask me where I've been
I don't even know
Don't ask me if we're friends
It changes as I go
Mmmm Mmmm
Mmmm Mmmm
I'd be lying to say I didn't care
But I did this myself
It's completely fair
The biggest ego
I'm insecure
To think that I hold everyone's stare
Try to be who I want to be
All that
"Be the change you want to see"
But every thought
Met with indecision
Even when I'm proud
I'm counting reasons
I
Oh why
I'm disconnected
I've tried all your little methods
Joined pottery to feel better
It's not your fault
I feel neglected
Don't ask me what I am
I don't even know
Don't ask me who I am
It changes as I go
Mmmm Mmmm
Mmmm Mmmm