Letter To God

Dear God
I'm writing this letter to you
'Cause I don't have a clue
Can you help me?

I'm sitting here
Simply trying to figure out
What my life's all about
Can you tell me?

I never wanted to be
The person you see
Can you tell me who I am?
I always wanted to die
But you kept me here alive
Can you tell me who I am?

I lie awake
Conducting this symphony
That you have gifted to me
But I can't ever sleep

Don't be mad
But I get weak inside
And I start to fall apart
'Cause I feel nothing

I never wanted to be
Some kind of comic relief
Please show me who I am
I've been tortured and scorned
Since the day that I was born
But I don't know who I am

And I thank you man for everything
Sorry I'm so frightened about all of it
But I wish I could give you more
And all the lights are shining down on me
And I feel intimidated by it all

I never wanted to be
The person you see
But thank you

Oh, God please tell me now
Are you disappointed, are you proud?
Haven't I done everything, everything

I'm so sorry I'm so weak
And I've turned into a freak
But I don't know anything, anything

I've lost all self-esteem
By burying everything
And I feel nothing, nothing

Oh God please tell me now
Oh God please tell me now
'Cause I feel nothing

And dear God
I'm writing this letter to you
I am coming unglued
Please help me