Baby Father

Look at you, back to square one
See your little birth control never hurt a soul
It might have prevented one that wasn't meant to come
You've had your fair share of pregnancy scares
Guys are fathering babies that ain't technically theirs
And you'd like to say "seeing that affected me bare"
But even to this day you still forget to beware that you could
Ruin your life doing your wife
There's always that safety net we expect to be there
But it's down to you making that decision in hospital
When your living conditions are mission impossible
You could go from washing the dishes and watching porn
To raising a little kid that wishes it wasn't born
Cause mum & dad never have any paper change
Consider your possible position at a later stage
Some obstacles are hidden at a greater range and all now her behavior changed

See you been tryna call her but she shegged the requests
Cah the two lines showed up on her pregnancy test
It's tempting to dwell on what you did & didn't do
But first you gotta confirm she isn't kidding you
And you just wanna tell her straight "This don't equate to no relationship even if there is a kid in you"
(Can you even call it a baby?)
I swear it can't feel nothing until the 24th week
And the circumstances couldn't be any more peak
Cause you don't know this is not just manipulation
Tryna avoid words like 'problem' and 'situation'
But you know she won't not be blunt for you so you fix your face and ask her what she wants to do
But she reckons she wants the yout especially one for you
And it's easier after the first rocky months are through
(Thats what she wants to do)
But all you can see is more strife
It's her body but it's your life
So you're tryna find another pathway now
Cause when you're halfway in you're always halfway out
Its something you can't ignore and can't force
But is the choice ever any more than half yours?
So ironic
This decision making process was a composition of competitions
Between wrong decisions and non-decisions
Now she's doing what she isn't supposed to do and effectively making decisions for both of you
Fam tell me this isn't the golden truth
Cah she feels she's meant to be taking a strong position
But to you she's potentially making the wrong decision
And if she was only seeing you
That would make her a fairly lonely lover
Now for the first time in this, whatever its called
You both acknowledge that you barely know each other
All you could do was put on protection
And avoid the common but wrong perception
That that's the only form of contraception
But it looks so different on reflection
My G you woulda had more patience than a hospital had
If you could confirm you're the only possible dad

Suspicions about lying and semen
Prying and scheming
But shes crying and screaming
And in the ends our priorities are messed up
She'll idealise it so nothing else can stand in her way
And you can't stop thinking what the mandem will say
That's why a family can't be planned in a day
That's why a family can't be planned in a day

Heated words, you spit lava
She's forcing you to choose between becoming an absent dad & a shit father
Being stuck between a rock and a hard place is odd
When you're so confused you can't pray to God
You just wanna go back to the yard, play some COD
But this ain't going away, so you go in & say
Exactly what you don't wanna say

"If you get an abortion, problem solved
If you choose not to, i'm not involved"
She goes mad it's a miracle you survived
But what you don't realise is she had that exact same conversation with her actual boyfriend
Before you arrived

You think about the baby's life
If it becomes a criminal
You know that's gonna be your bad kid
But mummy's only doing what her mum did
And you're only doing what your dad did
Couple years down the line
She's asking me if I'm gonna stick around for time
Saying "I gotta think about this child of mine"
So we both made decisions and I can't say I'm proud of mine
Decisions decisions