Anyone Else

Passed out on the couch again
You told me that you tried to put me to bed
I couldn't be bothered, just slept in my jeans
Like I did every night for the past seven weeks
And you said that you were worried about me
I said you shouldn't be
I'm doing fine
I knew that you knew that it was a lie
What else what I supposed to say
When I was drunk every night
On your bathroom floor
Kissing the tile, then drinking more
Until I listed off every terrible thought
From my spinning head
Whilе you begged me to stop
And thеn I wished that I could be anyone else
So that I wouldn't have to see myself
The way I know that everyone else probably does
It's not like I could even blame them because
I know that they're right
I know you don't care
I don't hate you for leaving
I hate me for driving you there