My Broken Roof
Beatz By Chriz
C Major on this shit, yo!
I couldn't believe it, that wasn't me
It went like a movie, only that shit was for real
I couldn't believe that I did it but there I was
Standin' in front of 'em, answerin' they questions
It came like a shocker, well it was a shocker
I tried to endure but they pressed at me harder
I wish I could go back in time to fix all the mistakes that I made to make my life better
It happened in the weirdest way
I never believed I could do such a thing
To take from my Granny's container, the paper my mama needed to get back on her feet
Her heart was shattered, my head fell in pieces while tryna understand the shit I commited
Now all of the family turnin' they back on me
They all see me as a criminal
I understand
I know that I messed up again and again, again and again
Over and over, I kept doing things that made Granny to cry in my presence with tears
One time she cursed me and said I would die if my bag ever came in contact with my hands
I'm willing to die if it means to lift up all the burden my Granny's been carryin' for years
When my friends see me, they tend to assume that I'm going through suffering cause of my Granny
Actually the reverse is the case in the sense that my Granny is suffering because of me
There's so many things she'd had done for me had I not been such an idiot to follow my uncle's footsteps
I still blame myself for eveything that happened
I still blame myself for fallin' to temptation
I don't even deserve to keep livin'
I deserve to die by the sword and be sent down to hell
Cause I'm very sure Jesus himself would be very surprised to see me at his gate, I could tell
It's not like I'm better than people who've done more evil
I have done more evil than a lotta people
I been havin' bad times and family issues
All I need is somebody to save me from all of this misery eatin' me up
The devil keeps temptin' but I've had enough of the pain and regret that keep followin' up
What I want in this life is to regain the trust that I lost in my family
Seriously, losing that trust messed me up and some people made fun of me
Now I can't even be sure if I'm worthy to call myself a man in front of my children
Assumin' I'm gonna children, well that is a story for another day
I'm gonna have children, that's something my Granny's been prayin' for everytime, every day
It's just that my roof is so broken
So broken, the water drops wet me whenever it rains
I'm sorry whoever it is I offended, I hope I could take all your troubles away
It's Major
Beatz By Chriz