I Drink

I drink to drive away all
The years I have hated
The ambitions frustrated that
No longer survive
I drink day after day to the chaos behind me
Yes, I drink to remind me
That still I'm alive

So I give you a toast
To the endless confusions
To the lies and delusions that
Have swallowed my life
Yes, I give you a toast to
The wine and the roses
To the deadly cirrhosis that can
Cut like a knife

I drink to catch a gleam
Of the love we degraded
Of a life that has faded
Like the vanishing moon
I drink, as in a dream, to my waning desire
To the passionate fire that has
Burned out so soon i drink and I drown in
The promise you made me
All the times you betrayed me
In your anger and spite
When you took on the town
When you looked for the action
When you took satisfaction
Like a whore in the night

I drink to make-believe that my
Life is worth living
That the gods are forgiving at
The end of the day
I drink because I grieve for
The dreams when we started
For the innocent hearted who got
Lost on the way

For the children unborn, for their dead
Phantom faces
For our sterile embraces in the
Tomb of your bed i drink
And I mourn for the harvest that failed
For the ship that has sailed
For the hope that is dead

I drink to find a place where
The darkness can hide me
Till the terror inside me
Can at last disappear
I drink to my disgrace
Till oblivion claims me
Till there's nothing that shames me
Till I'm blind to my fear

Yes, I drink till I burst
In my own degradation
To the edge of damnation
That is waiting below
Yes, I drink with a thirst
That destroys and depraves me
And cuffs and enslaves me
And will never let go

I drink until I'm lost
And the street is my hideout
Where I vomit my pride out
Till I'm gasping for breath
I drink to count the cost of
A life I despair for
Until God hears my prayer for
The compassion of death
So I spit out my bile at
The gods who demean us
At the silence between us
At the love none can save
For a life that is vile
For a soul that is ailing
For a body that's failing as
It heads for the grave

I drink without a care drink because I must
Drink to my despair i drink to your disgust
I drink, drink, drink by God, I drink!
Yes, I drink!