Pursuit of Excellence

More so than often
I weep when I sleep cause my hopes in disguise
Couldn't even tell you what it's costing
The voice in my dream screams "Open your eyes"
I'm ashamed that I'm lost in
A place full of nothing but the pain that Is haunting
It's exhausting a part of me, pardon me
Its partially hard to see with a heart of Eve

Shedding light upon it dawn to me it's honestly dishonoring
Here's a little food for thought, a fool for love?
Truth or not, it's who you love
Move or stop, do or done?
Do or die where you reside
Usually, they using me, abusing these
Thoughts of mine that prove to see what used to be the light in you and I

Used to wonder why? but I know how
Conversations never hold now
Holding on to the good times
They gotta taste for thoughts, but they never understood mine

Stuck in a ballad
A battle weighting the problems and finding a balance
A rose that rose from the granite
Soon as I had it I lost it
A grasp that took it for granted

And as times goes on
I have to understand that I don't have to fight these things alone anymore
And in doing so, I hope to find peace

I wander in a wonderland where mourning ends
Even then, feel unfortunate
Closed doors never opening
Wanna overdose on opium but cope with it

The culprit is that hope exist
Off a sip of gin
Imma fit for sin
Mama grip an end of a rosary supposedly for shadows laying over me

We oversee the issues overseas
Noticing the threat, they'll notice me
City of Broken mirrors, no one hopes to hear us
Clear there's a blur, we don't know of ease

Doves that fly in darkness
Only love can leave you heartless
Always question where your heart is
Our hardest soulful thoughts are the farthest

And
Broken promises from those anonymous
That hold some prominence lie
As deceiving equals to what seems too evil
The peace is see through from I

You may never pray to or pray for the same
Or believes there's no name for superior
I just hope when you listen
The words you hear through your ears are simply taken serious

To find peace within myself
More significantly for what was and What is and where I am today