Missing You

Man whats going on family man
I just want y'all to know
That I'm good
Through all this
You know what I'm saying
It's just a, it's just
Another chapter in my life
It's just apart of my journey
But I got my head held high
Through it all
You know what I'm saying
Never letting my chin touch my chest
That's the motto
I'm sticking to
It ain't all bad
You know what I'm saying
I just want y'all to understand that
That this is something
That God had planned for me
God I pray I hold it together
I barely make it through letters
Family been my heart
Why allow it now
To be severed
Knowing I can't control when he home
Despite my efforts
Is really taking a toll
Only you alone
Can make better
Normalcy don't exist
When a missing piece out of place
B told me be strong
God I'm pulling on you
For strength
Let me being your son
Not just be something I say
Still I don't know about this
God you really testing my faith
I can't
This is His time to work on me
So it ain't got nothing to do
With y'all
It ain't got nothing to do
With nothing else
It's just between me and The Man
And you know what I'm saying
I'm gone work on what I can
You feel me
I just want y'all to know
That I'm blessed man
You can't thank God for life
And be mad about the lessons
I'ma continue to praise Him
Cause all of it's a blessing
I won't be in here forever fam
Just looking back on the old us
And how life shaped and mold us
Me being the oldest
I felt it fell on my shoulders
But
As we got older
I noticed you're the addition
That would be too ambitious
To accept the current conditions
And though
Our parents struggled
We always seemed to be straight
Puzzles me to this day
How they kept most issues at bay
While we
Learned to create
The best of our lack of space
Different sides of the same bed
With feet in each others face man
We was bunched up
But that wasn't gone crush us
Ugliest circumstances
We managed to make some fun of
It was a trip
Making tents in the pit
Quoting movies so well
You'd think that we wrote the script
Can't forget little leagues
Boy you was prime time
Running over dudes
I ran with you down the sidelines
Seen you to the touchdown
Fam you made me so proud
The same feeling I had back then
Is the same I have now man
I promise
I still have the same big heart
But I'm nothing like the old me
I love my family to death
And was raised by the best
Just know my head's held high
Never letting my chin touch my chest
God I know that you got a plan
We so quick to quote Jeremiah
Tell me what would we do
If we really knew your desires
Our ways never been yours
The way you think's so much higher
We don't see all you've planned
Til typically it's behind us
It's really so insane
The mysteries of your reign
You know what's best for me
Even if it consist of pain
Even the smartest brains
Inadequately explain
Like how we got free will
Yet our lives still be preordained
Bro
Mei Bri and Cali
Will always view you the greatest
God's spirit resonating in them
Conveying what grace is
Always room for redemption
No matter what the mistake is
But He's Lord to put faith in
Not just a Savior for saving
I'm not
Trying to preach to you
Just need to get off my mind
All that I should have said
When I had you right by my side
The nights we would hit the strip
The trips we took with the guys
Just always know in my eyes
You the realest person alive
For real
I love y'all