How Does It Feel

Yeah, lot of you miss the old me
The one who couldn't think for himself
'cause now you cannot control me
(Can't control me)
And the big lights feel lonely
I just wanna drop songs
Tell people what I'm on while keepin' low-key

Yeah, 'cause this is bigger
Than they ever thought
Yeah, I'm on my way to the top
I done heard this is what everyone want
Yeah, buy it all, fuck all the cost
But I been worrying 'bout things that I lost
Worried 'bout brother, my sister and moms
Ever since she been away from my pops

Yeah, like how do you feel?
When the fake love comes out, know it's real
And you scared to face the truth
Don't wanna deal with it
Don't wanna be something
Just to keep running
When it won't heal nothing

Told my mama I'd be something
And I would never lie
During COVID, I was buried alive
And now everybody think that I'm fine
Only feel good when on the mic
I ain't even worried bout all the lights
I would be better off in the shade
I would be better out of the way
But this the shit that God made
Yeah, I wish you could feel
The shit that I feel
It never feels real, oh, nah, nah, nah
Yeah, you like how it feels
To grow up and build
When everything all starts
It's all falling down

Yeah, 'cause this is bigger
Than they ever thought
Yeah, I'm on my way to the top
I done heard this is what everyone want
Yeah, buy it all, fuck all the cost
But I been worrying 'bout things that I lost
Worried 'bout brother, my sister and moms
Ever since she been away from my pops

Yeah, like how do you feel?
When the fake love comes out, know it's real
And you scared to face the truth
Don't wanna deal with it
Don't wanna be something
Just to keep running
When it won't heal nothing