Contemplating (Toxic Humans)

I've been waitin', I'm contemplatin'
Said you love me, girl, you were playing
None of this gon' matter when we die
I won't wipe your tears, not when you cry
This ain't love, girl, this more like hatred
I've been down this road so many times before
Hoes in my phone, they're your replacement
But they feel nothing like you, you made me whole
I can't tell if this is a dream
Am I awake, or am I asleep?
I don't have answers, philosophies mean nothing to me right now
And I can't tell, if you were with me or against me
All my friends say you're Icky Vicky
I feel like Timmy, I keep on wishing
For better days, better days
Need some stronger pills, a better daze
I been risking my life since you been away
Tryna' get your attention from far away
I've been having lucid dreams, stupid dreams
Thinkin' 'bout you and me, fluently
I've been experimentin' to take the pain away
Wake up thinkin' I heard your name
I've been waitin', I'm contemplatin'
Said you love me, girl, you were playing
None of this gon' matter when we die
I won't wipe your tears, not when you cry
This ain't love, girl, this more like hatred
I've been down this road so many times before
Hoes in my phone, they're your replacement
But they feel nothing like you, you made me whole
This is the part where I confess that
Most of my relations were toxic
Happiness will come when it's ready
Hold out your hands and embrace it with open arms
This is the part where I confess that
Toxic humans come off attractive
I made this song for anyone that's going through it, I'll clean up the mess
Na, na-na-na-na
Na-na-na-na
Na-na-na-na-na-na-na
Na-na-na-na
Na-na-na-na
Na-na-na-na-na-na-na
What's the matter? Questions are unanswered
If you need some help, I'm a tweet away, hit me today, hey
I've been waitin', I'm contemplatin'
Said you love me, girl, you were playing
None of this gon' matter when we die
I won't wipe your tears, not when you cry
This ain't love, girl, this more like hatred
I've been down this road so many times before
Hoes in my phone, they're your replacement
But they feel nothing like you, you made me whole