Not Nervous Freestyle

[Verse]
Yeah, and I'm just thinking 'bout what I should do
I been worried 'bout too many things, it's nothing new
But I don't wanna feel that way no more
So I had to make some changes, so I do not feel that weight no more
Had to find a way to leave the life I didn't like
I had to leave that girl behind who spent some time here in my mind
I always wondered "what if", but it fucked with me and that ain't right
I really need that peace of mind and that is what I need in life
And even more than that, I had to let some people go
Cause your plans don't align with mine, distractions I don't need no more
And even though the love remains, it just ain't like it was before
Cause people grow apart, and that's okay, but I still feel remorse
Thinking back to better days
When everything was easy and only carbs and protein on my plate
But today it's different, I got so much on my mind right now
It's hard to keep the focus, if I'm floating, better hold me down
And I think that I still think too much
I'm always in my head, thinking 'bout the dreams I can not touch
But I been making plans, so really all my dreams have turned to goals
Checking them off one by one, everything I touch turns gold
Now I been working on this music shit
Made like 50 tracks, and nothing good enough to drop and shit
I always need perfection, I can't drop if I'm not feeling it
I hope you understand, it's been a while, but this the realest shit
And I will always give one hundred
Maybe a little more, but I ain't lacking and that's honest
I try to make the best shit that you're ever gonna hear
And if I change a single life, I think I might just drop a tear
Fucked up so many times that I done lost count
Fell into a spiral, didn't think I'd ever make it out
But I been on a journey, tryna find myself and all that
And I like who I'm becoming, so I'll never ever fall back
People don't believe, they tell me "what if you fail"
I tell 'em "what if I don't?", tell me to stop the dreaming, keep it real
I could never listen to them, keep the life that they don't feel
At least I try to chase my dreams, don't play with all the cards they deal
And I have always done my own things
I have never fit their picture, I don't care about what y'all think
I'mma keep on doing me and I ain't switching up for no one
Cause I think it's going well, so I'm just keeping with the motion
Yeah, take a minute, 'magine life in just a decade
Think 'bout where you come from, playing ball and sipping kool aid
Think 'bout where you're heading, focus on you, cause they faking
Got my eyes locked on the future, don't look back until I make it
Been having premonitions that I'm stuck at where I come from
Cause I'm too afraid to take the step to leave the ones the love's from
Can't stay in the comfort zone, no growing when I'm in there
And it's hard to breath in these heights, like I'm climbing in the thin air
Anxiety still got me, I can never get away from that
The blues surround me everyday like concerts with the clarinets
Still feel like I'm drowning, but my head above the surface
But believe me, I got stamina, so I ain't even nervous