Hating Myself, As I Should

[Verse 1]
If I come around you, don't start all that crying
I'm starting to get predictable when I'm in my feelings
If I say I'm fine, then I'm probably lying
This should be happy, but I'm thinking about dying
Now you can notice the flow that switching
I can't seem to get feelings, like they limited edition
I'm not the only that be feeling this
When she put a period, but she ain't finished
She telling stories, I don't wanna hear it
You say that you fear me, but the next day you fearless
This is a happy song, he looking cheery (that boy, uh)
I got me a lil' baby, but I'm riding with a gunner
He acting sus, like an imposter among us
He talking shit, he just making assumptions

[Chorus]
I'm just over here thinking 'bout how life is so bad
I take lies into a bottle, fill it up to the cap
If they got attention, I see it and grab
Lean in my cup, cook it up the lab
My heart broke into pieces like I crashed
Knife to my neck, and I just wanna slash
But I got people who claim they look out for me
And they wanna get on my ass
Okay, loving myself is a test I can't pass