I Fxxxing Hate Myself

I freaking hate myself
I wanted more than this
So scared of what I want
Afraid it can't exist

Ever since then
I've been stuffing my pockets
Getting rid of these bad behaviors
That are known to latch on me
Ever since then, I made the
choice to come find you
Reminiscing from time to time of all those things that made up you
And, I don't get high anymore
I was thinking about my ways
And how I'm so insecure
And, if I end up a goon
As a son of an immigrant
That's not a valid excuse

How am I still breathing
Take this pressure from me
Take this Pressure from me
Its not like I asked for any bit of it

I freaking hate myself
I wanted more than this
So scared of what I want
Afraid it can't exist

I freaking hate myself
I wanted more than this
So scared of what I want
Afraid it can't exist

Trying to keep myself from falling off
You could make me feel so comfortable
Keep my head above the water
For just a little longer
I never faltered

She's stumbles and falls on my lap
And acting like she was mi cosa
I was basing my worth all from her eyes
Could've sworn I was more than enough

So that night I made some choices
Held my head above the surface
Told myself that I was worth it so

Why am I retreating
All this pressure from this world's got me bleeding
It's not like I asked for any bit of it

I freaking hate myself
I wanted more than this
So scared of what I want
Afraid it can't exist

I freaking hate myself
I wanted more than this
So scared of what I want
Afraid it can't exist

I'm down on my luck, You don't give a
I'm down on my luck, You don't give a
I'm down on my luck, You don't give a
I'm down on my luck, You don't give a