Wonder If You Wonder

Know it's been a long time
I hear you're doin' just fine
Graduated, got a job and you
Been working a grind
You're never looking behind
I know you never found me crossing your mind
But I'd be lying if you didn't cross mine
From time to time
I see some of your pictures online
"Kindest Regards" was hard
I left my heart on the line
I wrote a song for you
Took a couple months of my time
How can you praise him for flowers
And a bottle of wine? You'll never be mine
Remember the time I came to see you?
I thought it would just be you
But there's twelve other people you see
There was never "We" so we
Could never be a sequel
Thought it might've been a date that day
Did anything to see you
But I'm nothing more than nothing
You're bluffin' sayin' you care
Our only real connection is
Memories that we share
I would never try to blame you
'cause blaming you isn't fair
Not that you care
The stress is really starting to wear
And in my music
I took our story and I used it
Don't care how you were feeling
I'm busy dropping my new shit
Know people gonna love it
I'm buzzin' after I do it
I'm gifted with the curse of honesty
And the truth is
I loved you more than words
I didn't know how to prove it
Can't tell you that in person
But always could through my music
Everyone who said they cared isn't there
Now I'm confused
I'm broken and bruised, lonely
Open, empty, and stupid, and still I

I thought I had it all figured out
No, you would never fall for me now
I wonder if you wonder why I'm never around
I wonder if you, i wonder if you wonder what
I'm doing right now
You can hear the pain in my sound
Laughed as I fell to the ground
I wonder if you wonder why I'm never around
I wonder if you, i wonder if you wonder what
I'm doing right now

And I can't lie, it hurt a little when you
Said you didn't want me
To know I never tried is
What continues to haunt me
Every pic I see is you and him
His Twitter trying to taunt me
You think I let it go?
This is old and exhausting some offspring
Family in a house is what I thought about
Sometimes I wonder if he'll get that now
See, we know that you picked a different path
Me, I picked a different route
And I can't help but laugh at
How this all played out you're over me now
I'm hoping you found only the best
Remember when we used to rap that Kanye West?
"Graduation" in rotation 'cause you
Liked that best
And back then I didn't want you, now look
I'm a mess i open my chest and through me
You can see no spine
My profile pic and lyrics
I've been hiding behind
It looks like you found the love
That I was hopin' to find
The only you I love's the one
That I create in my mind, and still I

I thought I had it all figured out
No, you would never fall for me now
I wonder if you wonder why I'm never around
I wonder if you, i wonder if you wonder what
I'm doing right now
You can hear the pain in my sound
Laughed as I fell to the ground
I wonder if you wonder why I'm never around
I wonder if you, i wonder if you wonder what
I'm doing right now
I thought I had it all figured out
No, you would never fall for me now
I wonder if you wonder why I'm never around
I wonder if you, i wonder if you wonder what
I'm doing right now
You can hear the pain in my sound
Laughed as I fell to the ground
I wonder if you wonder why I'm never around
I wonder if you, i wonder if you wonder what
I'm doing right now

I often wonder if you ever did care
I wonder why in my mind is the
Only time you ever were there
See, we were friends, but that
Felt more like pretend, this year
It's awfully clear
The real us is what I fear
The one where we were only friends
And I'd act like we dated
And nowadays our conversation is, "Hey
Happy belated"
And every song I wrote for you
You know you actually hated
Because you realize that you never felt
The same when you played it
You never cared if I made
It, that's why I waited, you know me
See, all the love that I've been
Getting through my phone feels phony
I rhyme a couple words together
Every girl wanna blow me
We're in a world full of people
Yet I'm feeling so lonely
If only I could tell myself there's
Plenty fish in the sea
But see, the sea is full
Of sharks, fake guppies, and greed
And as I find myself drowning
While I'm fighting to breathe
I realize that I'm in love with
What I thought we could be