October (feat. Alayè)

So many things I wish I could have told u
So many nights where I wish that I could hold u
And now I miss u I know I'm not supposed to
Can't hide these feelings cause they feel like they will bust through
Like to be honest I never thought I'd write his verse
The pain it causes I swear to God Im lost for words
10-16-98
To march 17, 2000 18
The last date is the day you got swept away
Swept away on angel's wings to those heavenly gates
To be honest I never understood death
How could god take someone so young
To their eternal rest
I know u struggled with depression
And what u thought where imperfections
Health reasons left you broken
No emotions
Unimportant
Unsupported
I Remember the long nights
When we laughed and cried
I wish I had another chance
To apologize
I miss you
It's been 16 years
Ever since you went away
Every single night I sit
And I think about that day
Doing everything I can
Just to take the pain away
Ever since you left my life
It's like my heart Just fades away
Remember i was 5 years old
Remember I was 5 years old
On October 31st
That's the day they took your soul
Filled you up with bullets
And left your body in the cold
I know it's been a couple years
But it's so hard to let this go
Wished you heard my first song
Wished you saw me graduate
Look into crowd and see you
As I staring from the stage
Wish that I could make it happen
But I will never get that day
Lost big chunk of my heart
So now it's really hard to pray
So I grab another bottle
I just take another drink
Drown myself in alcohol
And slowly I began to sink
Its so hard to carry on
Knowing your not here with me
So know I sit and write this song
And let your soul Rest In Peace