Doin Damage

[Verse 1]
It's hard to be sober but it's easy to be bent
When you got some extra money and don't need it for the rent
Got a girlfriend now that I secretly resent
'Cause she takes up all the time that I previously spent on myself
And girls just wanna have fun
And she be all fun when her job is done
But my job is another thing, 24/7 hustling
She wanting to do a couple things, cuddling
I like to watch movies, I really fucking do
But I can't stop moving just 'cause I fell in love with you
And now I'm just an irritable bastard
Like my homie E said a man can't serve two masters
And I've got a third one chillin' in my stomach
A little leprechaun screaming "Alcohol, I want it"
And he never ever shut up, he says, "Come on, keep it coming"
And the alcohol goes along with the music and the women
So I black out on the regular
And it's rare I'm a end of the night rememberer
Goddamn, I'm a drunken mess
Maybe that's why I'm always fucking depressed

[Chorus]
I'm doing damage
Yeah, I'm doing damage
To my body and mind, I'm doing damage
Call the doctor, he'll probably find I'm doing damage

[Verse 2]
My health just ain't what it used to be
'Cause I done smoked a packed of cigarettes a day since I hit puberty
And stupidly, I keep on going and buying 'em
And my lungs probably got some cancer growing inside of 'em
And it be affecting how I breathe at times
I hit playback, hear myself wheeze between the lines
I could probably quit if I was thinking clear
But my willpower goes out the window soon as I start drinking beer
And every freakin' year I got the same resolutions
January second I be making excuses
The leprechaun is a dangerous nuisance
Who sips champagne while he angrily two steps
I got a deal now, which should be essential
To straighten up my act and live up to my potential
But I just can't taste that success
Maybe that's why I'm always fucking depressed

[Chorus]
I'm doing damage
Yeah, man, I'm doing damage
It's probably gonna catch up soon, I'm doing damage
Call the doctor, I need a checkup soon, I'm doing damage
Bridge

[Bridge]
I didn't wanna be this way
Didn't wanna get like this every day
But my formula's something that I can't touch
'Cause regardless I come through in the clutch
I come through in the clutch, I come through in the clutch

[Verse 3]
I am too much for you ducks to touch, I am illustrious
I am a bad motherfucker and I truly believe that
But I gave some shit up to achieve that
Like my family and my friends, they don't call me anymore
'Cause when they would call I would always hit ignore
I was always self-absorbed with absorbing myself
I drink it up, drink it up, drink it up 'til there's no more of myself
And I don't value my father and my mother enough
I don't value the company of others enough
And human interaction is an essential part of happiness I believe
And that's what I've been rapping to achieve
And I did it in a way 'cause I'm in love with this shit
But alcoholism and music something that comes with this shit
When you're living for yourself, it's a lonely existence
And if you talk to yourself, you gon' be the only one listening
And that about sums it up
I'm out of gin and I really want another cup
So I'm out, to the store I guess
'Cause that's where I go when I'm fucking depressed
I'm doing damage