​laughing backwards

[Verse 1]
I could relate but I'd rather hate on you
Just masturbate and stay while I lay on you
Kill me, I promise that I'll never haunt you
Do it while you've got no motive to stop you
The urge to destroy that which you create
Return me to the earth from whence I came
It's only natural so there's no blame
I don't mean it, but I'm not ashamed
Let me know if you wanna go
I know you're biding your time
Until you've got it all
Write it down, take a pic or twelve
Watch me melt
And harden again and finish myself
You couldn't be happy if they weren't
Looking at you, look at you
A couple of 'em looked at me
And you thought
That's something a child could do
Righter than you know, righter than you know
But then again you're always right, I know
It doesn't take a blue flame to burn
Through the melting snow

[Pre-Chorus]
I will smile at your stupid stolen jokes
I don't have the energy to force myself
To laugh as hard as I used to force myself
To laugh to make you like me
I was faker than you
Ha-ha-ha
Ah-ah-ah

[Chorus]
You've got me laughing backwards again
But I can't be your friend
You've got me laughing backwards

[Verse 2]
I could relate, but I'd rather just date you
I masturbate in bed and think about you
Honestly, I don't think all that much of you
But here I am wondering if I could love you
Maybe it's 'cause I think you could love me
All because you wanna fuck me
You think you're so fucking funny
I'll play along, I feel like you're above me
On the plus side, when you make me cum
I don't have the urge to pull away or throw up
So I'll show up, again and again
You don't say stop, look at my luck
Someone to fuck, to suck and to hold
Everything you touch turns gold
Just like you
You're the best
Fuck the rest
You're the king
And I'm a mess
I'm so blessed, I'm in your bed
I confess, I confess
I'm absolutely fucking obsessed

[Chorus]
You've got me laughing backwards again
And the beginning is the end
Ha

[Outro]
It's funny