Fake Choking

[Verse 1]
I'll punish myself for neglecting
To pray at your temple today
And question the world
For neglecting to show me your face
The way it often does
No matter how far I stray
The way I still feel your touch
Even fucking the shame away

[Chorus]
You are my everything
That I can't see and say
You are my everything
In between classes and pay
You are my everything
In the window, during the day
Because you're nothing at all except
Old texts and pain
You're nothing at all except
Broken bones in the rain
You're nothing at all except
Keystrokes and fake choking
When deep-throating that started off
Real, but you told me to keep going
'Cause you like the sound of the kill

[Verse 2]
I'll punish myself for imagining
Someone else
But only because
It reminds me of how it was
I liked how close that you watched
Because when you were above
I got to watch you just the
Same way that you sunk in your claws

[Chorus]
I miss the way that you
Used to draw blood
I miss the way that you
Took your watch off
I miss the way that you
Sound when you cum
I miss getting to
Keep you away from
Anyone else but no one in
Particular, usually
Just anyone, not me
I just needed you in my
Posession, the way I
Was in yours
Like everything else you wore

[Verse 3]
Incredulous and abhorrant
Insidious but allurring
Reoccurring, broken and boring
Downloading torrents of things to do
I could listen to all your
Favorite music
And watch your favorite movies
But I don't want them to mean
Anything at all to me
I couldn't be
The only thing that you'd need
The only reason I bleed
The worst poison to me
The worst reason to bleed
You're just poison to me

[Chorus]
You are my everything
That I can't see and say
You are my everything
In between classes and pay
You are my everything
In the window, during the day
Because you're nothing at all except
Old texts and pain
You're nothing at all except
Broken bones in the rain
You're nothing at all except
Keystrokes and fake choking
When deep-throating that started off
Real, but you told me to keep going
'Cause you like the sound of the kill