Handzum $uicide

Deranged from the blood stains
All over my brain just another day
This killer train is ridin' down your way
I'm fucking starting to unthread
These voices that's in my head
I got a romance with the dead
That's sleeping in river beds, uh
Damaging my organs, to me
They just ain't important
I'm a different kind of breed
The one that don't even breathe
The one you ain't gotta feed
Just rob and take what I need
Fucking product of the $uicide
Fucking spawn of Satan cuttin' on my wrist
While these women fornicating
I'm debating to take my life
Forsaken by sacrifice
Mistaken for something nice

Pile of ashes is my final form
Got a roll of duct tape
And a rag soaked in chloroform
Flies swarm because my body's warm
Shatter the urn see me blowing in the wind
Like a scattered storm
Grey matter splattered in front
Of the corner store
Saw that when I was fourteen
Walking around the 2nd Ward
Send him to the seventh floor
Ended up with floor seats to something
I didn't want to see
Now that scene is in my head
Every time I go to sleep when I dream
I rest in peace knowing I'll be dead
Earth will be my final bed
Poison me with lead
Inject it into my fucking head

Pressure, pressure
How do I dear deal with all this pressure?
In my way it’s in my lungs
It’s in my thoughts it’s in my brain
A guilty conscience some might say
I’m paranoid and locked away
A withering weed in the garden that
God wasn't supposed to save
Locked up in an open grave
With a King James' Bible
With a couple quotes erased
But kept the ones that made me smile
Do I really see everything for what it is?
Or is it that I can’t see anything
With such a bad case of denial
When I die, then put my body in a boat
And light it on fire, push me out to sea
And let the wind do what I might-a
No matter whatever I feel about anything
It wasn’t until I burned all my bridges
It made my future brighter