Following Me

[Verse 1: Monoxide]
I'm feeling so cold and broken
I was hoping that somebody can maybe take a moment
To get me out of my hopeless state of mind, and I'm open
To almost anything 'cause the burden of what I'm holding
Is heavy like the crown of a hundred kings
So I keep bottling, and it seems not a thing can bother me
But the truth is I'm hoping to get through this
Medicine is useless, and I'm the living proof
Sick of being cooped up like a pigeon on a roof
Just wanna be alone, and no I don't have a clue
My anxiety picked me, I'm totally confused by it all
So is everybody elsе, I'm in a free fall
Help me break through, it's not too latе to
Many people focus on the things they can't lose
And I don't wanna do the same, we gotta weather it together
Or it's never gonna change or get better, man

[Chorus: Monoxide]
Seems like this storm cloud been following me
Just want to ignore it, but it's swallowing me
When it rains it pours and it comes with no apology
I'm not sure I can take it anymore
Can anybody get this feeling out of me?

[Verse 2: Young Wicked]
I'm used to the pain
So I don't need a thing, just get the fuck away from me
Unless you're sending me an angel
Something in my brain so gone, living painfully
I'm tryna find my way out of the dark
My mama's heart gon' break when she pray for me
I wonder when the world gon' change for me
I'm tired of this shit, I've been feeling sick
I've been like, uh, getting violent in this bitch
Hiding from the light, uhin the night is where I live
I can't get a grip, Vicodin and Tylenol again
There's a hole in my heart that I been climbin' in
Suicide hotline and I just dialed it
Told 'em, "Yeah, I been thinkin' about taking my life again
With a steak knife under my chin
Let a razor slide down my wrist
And I'ma bleed out
My life is like a prison and I need out
Psychiatric eval told me that I need help"
"Sir, I need you to take a deep breath and then breathe out"
"Make sure you tell my lady I love her after I peace out
'Cause nothing is helpin' the sufferin' I fell in
I'm stuck in this hell, it's the hand I was dealt in
So give me the bullet, a trigger to pull, or reason to stop
I hear the police on the block
I look at the gun, and I see a shot

[Chorus: Monoxide]
Seems like this storm cloud been following me
Just want to ignore it, but it's swallowing me
When it rains it pours and it comes with no apology
I'm not sure I can take it anymore
Can anybody get this feeling out of me?

[Verse 3: Jamie Madrox]
Storm cloud coming out the block full of rain for me
Even though they hate me wanna pray for me
[?] dig the grave for me hoping I'm [?]
Maybe stay longer than I'm 'possed to
From the underground [?]
People tryna roast you
Play you like a ghost who
Needs more attention than the average most do
That's hatin' with a [?], we do it like a thug do
And we gon' do it how we do it nothin' to it
Never was though, [?] to the front
[?] to the door, everybody on the floor
With they hands up, [?] the crown that we split
And we watch the throne like King Ye and Jay-Z
Add it to your playlist, forever young like a face lift
No credit for the efforts that we came with
Fame or entertainment or all of the love and dedication
Some shit never will replace it

[Chorus: Monoxide]
Seems like this storm cloud been following me
Just want to ignore it, but it's swallowing me
When it rains it pours and it comes with no apology
I'm not sure I can take it anymore
Can anybody get this feeling out of me?

[Verse 4: Bingx]
I been feelin' like all my confidence vacant
All my time has been wasted
My mind [?] clean but I'm manic
Checkin' out [?] conversation with Mom
My focus disappeared like magic
Made a promise I will always show respect for my elders
But lately I don't even have respect for myself
I'm isolated from the world
Depression is takin' over
Don't know what happened
[?] give me the pen and I'll tell ya
You been passionate, workin' like every day
[?] you might kick the bucket and pass, but you ain't makin' funds
Then you got labels makin' fun
They laughin', talkin' 'bout data
Trying to live with the expectations
Thinkin' like wait, how did they become
So cruel and unusual tryna shoot through my spirit
Like you don't want the music, you want [?] lyrics
I feel abused, but every tune got something you couldn't mirror
Acute and [?] you couldn't know the truth when you hear it
I'm guess I'm just confused, I need a way to vent it
Tryna teach my son to chase his dreams and make a difference
Either in the [?] in my soul to make a living
Play the gimmick, something I would never do to make 'em listen
Listen, I'm the outside, I may look fine
But the truth is my depression here wherever I go now
Always [?] on the inside
I think I'm spinnin' outta control now
Feel the pressure, my world is falling down on me
Depression relentless, it's like a [?] for me
Introspective, I shine a light on the doubts of me
Self-inflicted, but y'all keep on lookin' down from your balcony
That's the type of thing to crush your pride
And over time I just learned I couldn't trust those guys
Got passion, got heart, got talent, got pride
And who the fuck are you to look down from up so high?

[Chorus: Monoxide]
Seems like this storm cloud been following me
Just want to ignore it, but it's swallowing me
When it rains it pours and it comes with no apology
I'm not sure I can take it anymore
Can anybody get this feeling out of me?