Clown

All of my anger and all of my pain
Even if the days change
I'ma still feel the same
This tragic state's like a character trait
That I'm used to
The world trying to take away
Are they laughing at you while
They laughing with you is there
Is there a solution to the
Problems that persist to
Bring you down, I'm no clown
Even if my tears still amuse you

It only takes one bad day to
Push you over the edge
But what happens when every day is
Bad and it never ends?
You can't put that kinda shit upon
Your loved ones and your friends
So you ride it out, and when you need to
You'll pretend that everything is perfect
And nothing could be better
All the while inside doing your
Best to keep it together
Oh, you don't let the cracks
And the false face show
That it's all falling apart
But nobody needs to know
Inside voice, outside shine
Crooked-ass smile with a broke down mind
Still living in denial and trying
To waste more time
In search of all the answers but
Afraid of what you'll find
Believe me, I've been there, believe me
I've tried
No I am not a quitter, no I'm not for suicide
I ate the shit that life threw at
Me and took it in stride
I'm immune to the pain, somewhat insane
But I'll survive

All of my anger and all of my pain
Even if the days change
I'ma still feel the same
This tragic state's like a character trait
That I'm used to
The world trying to take away
Are they laughing at you while
They laughing with you is there
Is there a solution to the
Problems that persist to
Bring you down, I'm no clown
Even if my tears still amuse you

Every day's the same in my mind
Where the pain lives, never show signs
Keep it inside, 'cause the outside
World never understands hatred by design
Ever wonder why people tend to laugh when
And you wanna die, thoughts of suicide
(Thoughts of suicide)
Are the ones that all of your smiles hide
You laugh at anger 'til it comes to get you
Write your apologies now
Act like you got no issues
Suppress the feelings gone so far
Your people miss you
And can't remember who you
Are beneath the tissue
It's just easier to hide behind a laugh
Find light on the darkest paths
Never let them see you hurt and
Use happiness as a mask
No matter the pain and anguish
Outside of your skin is dangerous
Gon' vent to a troubled mind
Spent scribbled on different pages
Day by day, we courageous
We faces of different ages
No matter gender or races
The feeling inside is faceless
Written are my true thoughts
A message inside a bottle
Floatin', hopin' someone will find it
To help me through tomorrow

All of my anger and all of my pain
Even if the days change
I'ma still feel the same
This tragic state's like a character trait
That I'm used to
The world trying to take away
Are they laughing at you while
They laughing with you is there
Is there a solution to the
Problems that persist to
Bring you down, I'm no clown
Even if my tears still amuse you

Alone at last, feel like a broken glass
When will this feeling pass? When
Will this feeling pass?
Is this all happenstance? Just
Luck I haven't had?
When will this feeling pass? When
Will this feeling pass?
And I just wanna dream while I
Keep having all these nightmares
Afraid to fall asleep 'cause all I
See is dark inside there feeling obsolete
And I just wish someone was right there
Pull me to my feet and let me
Know that there's some light there
Reeling in defeat
I'm so sick of feeling beat
From the people on the street
All of them made fun of me
Nothing clear and tough to see
What will be will come to be
All the fear and self-loathing
Such negative energy
All the therapy and counseling
Everyone's got a fee
And in the end they don't see
I just wanna be me
So it's best I'm left alone
Though it seems like I'm on the brink
Let them say what they will say
I'll never care what they think

All of my anger and all of my pain
Even if the days change
I'ma still feel the same
This tragic state's like a character trait
That I'm used to
The world trying to take away
Are they laughing at you while
They laughing with you is there
Is there a solution to the
Problems that persist to
Bring you down, I'm no clown
Even if my tears still amuse you