Deep End

I've been tryin' not to go off the deep end
I don't think you wanna give me a reason
I've been workin' too hard to get even
I just wanna let you know what I'm thinkin
I've been tryin' not to go off the deep end
I don't think you wanna give me a reason
I've been working too hard to get even
I just wanna let you know what I'm thinking
What I'm think

I need to put more trust in my intuition
Been let down too many times cause I don't listen
Making wrong decisions, losing sight of my vision
Temptations all around me but I stay Christian
Looking for the lost boy but I stay missing
Switching up on my ways, they say I've been MIA
Pray I get a heaven gates, moving round with two phones
Man I feel like Kevin Gates, I just need a new home
Building the foundations make it strong like a new song
I still got a few ones, that ain't made the cut
Cuz I'm not good enough
Making up excuses and I wonder will they stop
Got my people waiting cause I always say I'll drop
Need to put more faith in my stuff
I know that they rough
I wanna make music that's tough
Polish my skills
Only talk about what's real, and that's the deal
Struggling with writer's block but I'm writing still
I just need a break from time to ease my mind
Dealing with the pressure I'm fine but not inside
In me is a mess
Sorting out the struggle and the stress
Sometimes I'm depressed
I've made some choices that I regret
Gotta reflect on what's next and pass the right checks
And watch where I step I'm trying my best
Cuz telling me to trust the process
Slowly making progress
Gonna make it to the top I promise I ain't stopping
Working overtime weighing up my different options
No time to rest, got bags under my eyelids
I know I'm not there but

I've been trying not to go off the deep end
I don't think you wanna give me a reason
Under pressure it don't feel like I'm breathing
I've been struggling to cope with this feeling

I've been trying not to go
Drowning under all of this load, it's weighing me down
Heavy is the head that wears the crown, and I know
Everything that glitters isn't gold
Life is a lesson you either get it or you don't
Definitely couldn't have made it here on my own
I gotta start acting bold, I'm older
Got my young siblings high up on my shoulders
Weight of my emotions like a boulder
Tryna keep my head above the water
But I'm drowning and it's only getting harder
Running out of things to say
Switching flows in different ways
So they wanna hear my story
And they turn another page
But let's focus on the first chapter
Let them know what I'm after
Trin the rapper
And I'm known to cause disasters
So just back up
Pokerface like an actor
This the kind of thing I gotta knack for
So Imma stick to it
Making good music
There were times that I thought that I couldn't do it
Back when I was still new to this
Bad thoughts tell them good riddance
See you later when I'm famous
And my songs are on playlists
And they got me on their radars
There ain't no better feeling than when I'm on stage
I see them screwing their face
I move at my pace
Sometimes it feels like I'm stuck in one place
Focused on finding myself
Working on me
Better my health
Get to a point I don't need nobody else
Independent man there ain't no looking back
Focused on the future tryna leave the past

And I've been trying not to go off the deep end
I don't think you wanna give me a reason
Under pressure it don't feel like I'm breathing
I've been struggling to cope with this feeling

Look
Last verse gotta make it count
Pour out my emotions and I lay em out
This is only the start
My words are straight from the heart
I know it's really far but Imma get on the charts
If no one else will I put my faith in my art
Pick up the pen and never drop it again
Remember what I felt back when I was ten
I wanna be a rapper show songs to my friends
So Imma push on and do all that I can
Chasing my dreams the new man on the scene
If I believe in me I can do anything
If it's there I'll seize what is mine I promise I've been trying not to go off the deep end
I don't think you wanna give me a reason
Under pressure it don't feel like I'm breathing
I've been struggling to cope with this feeling