Sleeping

[Verse 1]
What will I do, where will I go, I dunno
My life's a mess and I'm losing hope, that's for sure
Just listen to my music
All the verses that I wrote
Serve to express my pain
Sole emotion that I know
So when you see me around
And I'm not smiling yo
Just know my mind filled with darkness
And my sorrows yo
I'm wishing I could give back all the time I borrowed yo
Why should I be alive, that's an answer I don't know
Some people pray for change
Some people meditate
I used to do both
That's before I lost my faith
I don't believe in nothing
Nothing believes in me
My life been cold only heat I have is when I speak
But they refuse to listen, so still I'm all alone
I write these verses just to clear my mind and get it on
A lethal contradiction
Cause sometimes I be wishing
To be successful but sometimes I wish to be missing
From the face of earth
Reverse the curse that was my birth
Submerge myself in the ocean so you can save the hearse
I'm smoking devils lettuce
Father worried bout the herbs
He doesn't know that it's the only thing that soothes my nerves
Just like a silent letter always there but never heard
But that's alright cause I feel love from these nouns and verbs
Plus I know my worth, and it's not much on earth
But I hear angels calling, I'm bout to quench my thirst