Middle of It

I'm a human
I deserve the fucking feeling
Of thinking for myself yeah
I won't ever know when I'm gonna die
But I'm gonna live life like I might die
Cause in this world
you never truly know
Although I made my mind up
I found my place in this world
From the ground up
Wasted time in my eyes
Time's a construct
Took advantage of the moment
Now my values add up
Yeah mother fucker
I learned bout million things
What if everything happened simultaneously
That would mean our lives are everything
In this ever-changing reality
I mean I'm high
But that has no effect on me
Okay
Maybe a little
Raise the roof
Where the man
Ain't he play a fiddle
Where the truth
See
Now I'm in the middle
(Oh, yeah)
Now I'm in the middle
(Yeah, uh)
In the middle of it
Mi
In the Middle of it
Ya never stop me
Ya never stop me
I'm in the middle of it
In the middle of it
Ya never stop me
Ya never stop me
I'm in the middle of it
In the middle
I know my only way out
Is by walking through the fire
That's my sign
That's my empire
Yeah I see it in the distance
That's the goal
Shit takes perseverance
Why the fuck should I complain
When I got nothing to lose
When I got nothing but pain
It's nothing I didn't choose
But I feel guilty and shamed
By myself yeah
Too many months yeah
Mother fucker
Can't you tell
We're always running with fate
On our side
Only time
Will tell the feeling will take
Oh but wait
How long will I be willing to negate
The real future that I wanted yeah
And now I see that it's my calling yeah
Somehow I always end up falling yeah
Somehow we end up never talking again
Where have I gone
The last few years
Inside of my fears
I did some fucked up shit
To some of my peers
It seems to appear
That karma's coming back
In a subtle fashion
I never wanna accept that fact
I gotta do it someday
So why not today
How will I deliver
What I want to relay
Somehow I always end up
Causing delay
With the ones that I love
Lately i've been attracting my fears
They seem to appear
Every year
They're telling me here
Take this remedy evident medically
Pulled from the blood in your veins
Feeling insane almost every day
Lay on a plane
Yet I'm feeling no shame
I know we gonna see the sun again
And that's the only thing we should expect
I know we gonna feel the love again
With the ones that we love
Mother fucker
Can't you tell I'm in the middle of it
In due time
I know this feeling won't sit
I won't quit
Seeking answers lost inside of me
That'll forever be a hobby
And if not
I'd be living life all sloppy
Can't you tell that I am lost
Damn this world is so cold
Can't you tell by the frost
Developing on my genes
Was is worth the cost
All these months
All these mother fuckers
Never really know what to say
Now I know
There's never really any reason to stay
Inside my mind
That won't help at the end of the day
That'll keep me in the middle of it
Not a balance but the middle of it
Not a balance but the middle of it
Not a balance but the middle of it
Not a balance but the middle of it
(Yeah, yeah)
(Oh, oh)