Silverlake Neophyte

Will I get nervous before my take outside this club in silver lake
And there's no mistaking your perfect practiced innocence
I just start talking
You can see that I am not going to lie to you

And this folk music's fucking me up makes me think I should quit
Maybe I'm just scared of it
Quick hit and a flip of a zippo
Inhale and your eyes squint
And you point at me with a cigarette finger
And say you find some good shit
In the ruins

But deep down I'm not sold on what we're doing
Deep down I think you're seething with ambition
Like everyone else around you're on a mission
To see just how many likes you can get
Get your fingers wet
And have the people watch you rub a freeze

But everyone needs to be seen
There's no growing in the dark
Say it's just a pose
Well what's wrong with a pose
We all invent ourselves as we go
So here we go

Same old itch
The airs meant to protect myself
Took a life on now and they're breathing on their own
Some personality living up in me that I've been trying to ditch

I want things to be perfect so I put it off
Maybe progress now will do
I'm on the outside something's missing
So you've convinced yourself
But you're beautiful I mean look those hands
You're all purity with a splash of St. Germaine

Oh I want to be a daring one
No more songs about being cozy and bored
Don't sing about the suberbs
And how you miss the scent of home
Am Elliot smith clone is all you'll be
And miss all this urgency

I look for you again outside the show
I look for you again

And I'll go with you cause I kinda love you
If I see you again I think I'm going to kill you
Cause we'll keep doing this
Waiting around for someone who doesn't want me
To want me
I've been looking longingly at the scene