If I Decide

I just want it, I could need it
And I'm just on it, I ain't in it
And I shuffle around
And I hear those familiar sounds
The sounds that I heard before
But I don't wanna hear any more
Just to go where I want 'em to go
As if to say "I told you so"
And if I decide, I could live or die
If I decide, 'cause I could live a lie
If I decide, than maybe, just maybe
I could be saving the right life
The right life
The right life
The right life
I just do it, I don't need it
And I've been through it, but I ain't seen it
And I put on a show
The kind I swear you'd never know
And I'm getting over again
But then are those moments when
It all comes falling apart
And I don't know why I let it start
'Cause if I decide, I could live or die
If I decide, 'cause I could live a lie
If I decide, than maybe, just maybe
I could be saving the right life
The right life
The right life
The right life
If I decide, I could live or die
If I decide, 'cause I could live a lie
If I decide, than maybe, just maybe
I could be saving the right life
The right life
The right life
The right life
The right life
The right life
The right life
The right life
And if I decide