Mi Familia

Used to get higher on smoke clouds
So many drugs mama tears would just rain down
The heart was ice cold while the brain was just blazed out
My mind was like a flick with a lot of the frames out
Wake up on a couch don't know how I got there
Room was so smoky like it was a dragons' lair
Goons were all junkies feet was always in the air
Never hit the ground running like we was scared
Maybe we were
Couldn't shake the dread always feeling insecure
Wondering about our life and if it ended in the dirt
The way that most of us were were living it could've happened premature
Hold on
The smoke is tough to grasp
The same is said about the liquid we took from the flask
Or forty ounces over counter medicine that masked
It turned us into dummies we were bracing for a crash
Unafraid to make a choice that could've turned our life to ash
We was running we was gunning like John Rambo, Wayne, or Wick
Acting out like we were tough all we really were was sick
Needed help needed help mayday for broken kids
The ones you overlooked because they hide out in the trench
I really couldn't blame you attitude rude and disdainful
My mama barely made it made the journey super painful
So much in my life now
So much almost feel complete
Things are getting better
Oh I want mama to see
Made it through the darkness
Of all the things I used to be
This ones for the homies
My family who always believed
My family was there for me
Let's wrap it up on good notes and good vibes
Even though I could've died I am very much alive
Very much the pride of my mom and dad and wife
And my twin girl and my guy
Walking in the light
I was blind but now have sight
In a bind now free as flight
With the crime rate out my life
I can finally sleep at night
Like as I lay me down to rest
I can now hope for the best
Finally I can catch my breath