Conversations Without You

I think I may have underestimated the way I felt about you
It’s not until I am alone in this house that I miss the way we grew
We grew into each other
Went from friends and then to lovers
And I loved the way we danced
In the streets outside the park
When we first kissed when it got dark
And now you’re gone and I’m afraid

To take the step and rise above it
It’s in my sights and imma crush it
It’s not enough but it’s enough for me

To be the saint and then the sinner
To draw the line and stay within them
These broken rules and consequences won’t be the end for me

Cus I’m still learning how to live without you
I’m still learning how to live alone
So I can be the bad guy
If I’m still in your life
But before you close the door
I’m still learning how to live without you
And I don’t want to anymore

I know that things are better now
I still miss the bad times somehow
Feeling something is better than nothing and sometimes the silence can be so loud
And do you ever feel regret
From the night that you left
The slamming doors that had me crying on the floor
Now I’m wishing I could take back all I said

I'll take the good, bad and the ugly
Let’s leave it in the past no judgement here
I apologise for all the years
Of all those tears

I’ll be the bad guy if you let me
In your life again
A brand new start
I know that this is hard

Cus I’m still learning how to live without you
I’m still learning how to live alone
So I can be the bad guy
If I’m still in your life
But before you close the door
Im still learning how to live without you
And I don’t want to anymore

I don’t want to anymore
I don’t want to anymore
I don’t want to anymore
Hate not having conversations

I don’t want to anymore
I don’t want to anymore
I don’t want to anymore
Sick and tired of all this waiting

I don’t want to anymore
I don’t want to anymore
I don’t want to anymore
Darling I don’t have the patience

Cus I’m still learning how to live without you
I’m still learning how to live alone
So I can be the bad guy
If I’m still in your life
But before you close the door
I'm still learning how to live without you
And I don't want you anymore