Chemical

WAKING UP TO NO MEANING I STARE AT THE CEILING. COUNT THE IMPERFECTIONS THAT SURROUND MY BEING, CAN TELL HOW I'M FEELING, AND IT HURTS MORE WHEN YOU ASK. THERE'S A HOLE IN MY HEAD AND HEART BUT I'M A LONG WAY FROM THE START. THERE'S A HOLE IN MY HEAD AND HEART BUT I'M A LONG WAY FROM BACK WHEN I COULDN'T MOVE, WAS FROZEN, I TOLD MYSELF IT'S ALL GOOD, IT'S ONLY CHEMICAL. I'M TOO SHY TO SPEAK UP GUESS I HAVE MY REASONS FOR TELLING LITTLE LIES ABOUT THOSE AROUND ME AND WHAT I COULD BE. IT'S EATING ME ALIVE. THERE'S A HOLE IN MY HEAD AND HEART BUT I'M A LONG WAY FROM THE START. THERE'S A HOLE IN MY HEAD AND HEART BUT I'M A LONG WAY FROM BACK WHEN I COULDN'T MOVE, WAS FROZEN, I TOLD MYSELF IT'S ALL GOOD, IT'S ONLY CHEMICAL. I WANT TO SCREAM, BUT IT WON'T HELP. I'VE CREATED MY OWN HELL AND IT'S ONLY CHEMICAL. IT'S ONLY CHEMICAL. I FIND COMFORT WHEN THEY SAY YOU CAN'T SIT AND COUNT THE DAYS UNTIL IT ENDS. THERE'S STILL TIMES I WANT TO BREAK EVERYTHING I'VE EVER MADE, BUT I'VE COME A LONG WAY FROM BACK WHEN I COULDN'T MOVE, WAS FROZEN, I TOLD MYSELF IT'S ALL GOOD, IT'S ONLY CHEMICAL. I WANT TO SCREAM, BUT IT WON'T HELP. I'VE CREATED MY OWN HELL AND IT'S ONLY CHEMICAL. IT'S ONLY CHEMICAL.