20 Years Ago

Staring off into space
Smoking more than I should
Staying out of the race
Hiding from the neighbourhood

Looking out through the cracks
Catching glimpses of life
I touch the past when I look back
Like it's the edge of a knife

Playing to the crowd of one
As I cuss my demons out
For the things that I have done
To put my future in doubt

Feeling poison eat me up
From the fun I thought I had
Before I knew that lady luck
Could turn stark raving mad

And I'd give anything for twenty years ago
And what I know today about saying no
I'd give anything for twenty years ago
I'd never live the dreams that made this nightmare grow

Hardly leaving this place
Once a month for the news
That I shouldn't have much faith
And my bill is overdue

My phone rings every now and then
But I never pick it up
I don't want to talk to old friends
Who are up on their luck

And I'd give anything for twenty years ago
And what I know today about saying no
I'd give anything for twenty years ago
I'd never live the dreams that made this nightmare grow

And I'd give anything for twenty years ago
And what I know today about saying no
I'd give anything for twenty years ago
I'd never live the dreams that made this nightmare grow
I'd never live the dreams that made this nightmare grow