Note to Self

I wrote about it in college, the life I wanted
Acknowledged the way I needed it - but
Never imagined me getting closed to achieving it - uh
Blood, sweat, and tears, that’s what it taken - but I
Never imagined me every crying, sweatin, and bleedin it
It’s too late
You waited too long
That’s what you get, my nigga
Nobody tryna hear you talk that victim shit, my nigga
If you don’t use em, then they go, did you forget my nigga?
You always runnin' from yourself, and that’s that shit my nigga
That’s that shit my nigga
That’s that shit my nigga

All that muthafuckin time that you lost
All that muthafuckin time that you lost
That’s that shit my nigga

It’s like they ask me if I’m happy, I say well it depends
Are we talkin' peace of mind?
Or me buyin' a Benz?
Are we talkin havin' time, or a dime I dun spent?
I guess it kinda just depends on what you callin a win
Cause I been praying up to God — I been callin' it in
And I been lookin for response — lookin' and gettin' lost
Tired so I been runnin' out of exhaust
Shiverin' God — won’t please cut on defrost
Complainin about it daily but understandin' that I’m the blame in this muhfucka
Ain’t a muthafuckin' thang I can do but acknowledge it and promise you to change in this muthafucka

I wrote about it in college, the life I wanted
Acknowledged the way I needed it - but
Never imagined me getting closed to achieving it - uh
Blood, sweat, and tears, that’s what it taken - but I
Never imagined me every crying, sweatin, and bleedin it - uh
That’s that shit my nigga