Loss For Words

Loss for words what can I say?
I never thought id be done this way
People grow and lives will change
Blessings come, come in many ways
Instead its been 7 years but i'll never shed these tears for you
You'll never understand what you put me through
With their lives in your lies
I saw my childrens eyes
You know I should be feeling like a fool
God knows I should hate myself for loving you
I love you, I hate you, I love you
But fuck you
Just lost for words
It was hard to read what was on your mind
I was far away thinking it was fine
The more I tried now baby I push you away
God knows me and you could never communicate
And the anger and lies got the best of us
I was thinking in the bed we both shared
Is where you made that distrust for real
And theres nothing to take back theres nothing to retry
Its been done
Im the one only whos feeling something
Instead its been 7 years but i'll never shed these tears for you
Youll never understand what you put me through
With these lives in your lies
I saw my childrens eyes
You know i should be feeling like a fool
God knows I hate myself for loving you
I love you, I hate you, I love you
But fuck you
Dont you think I deserve at least the chance to say
What about the promises you had given me
Even if you thought we'd both be better off
Youll never know because you forgot