Lotus

Even when I️ try
To do everything right
Try to stay inside the lines
But there's something in my mind

Something I️ can't describe
I don't want to compromise
I don't need to hear the truth
But spare me the lies

Sometimes, things don't work out
I️ feel like that's my life now
Going round and around
Tryna find the escape route

Sometimes I close my eyes to see
Sometimes I forget how to breathe
Why can't I ever fall asleep?
This nightmares a mystery

I lose focus
I don't know, where I'm going
I'm scared of not knowing
I'm scared of not knowing

I'll just float along with the waves of the ocean
There's no time to see where we're going
Ooooo, the plan is already in motion

Two steps forward, one step back
Used to be scared of this crooked path
What's unknown is just undiscovered
There's still so much left to uncover

Everything I always wanted
Feels like nothing at all
Caught up in things that don't make sense
Stuck in beginnings that don't find an end

Sometimes I close my eyes to see
Sometimes I forget how to breathe
Why can't I ever fall asleep?
This nightmares a mystery

I lose focus
I don't know, where I'm going
I'm scared of not knowing
I'm scared of not knowing

I'll just float along with the waves of the ocean
There's no time to see where we're going
Ooooo, the plan is already in motion

I'll fulfill my dreams
Even if I break at the seams
That's the only way to the top
And no I'm never gonna stop

I'll set myself free from the concept of time
From fear of the unknown
From my own goddam mind

Sometimes I close my eyes to see
I pause and breathe in deep
Don't wanna ever fall asleep
I'm in love with the mystery

I lose focus
I don't know, where I'm going
There's faith in not knowing
There's faith in not knowing

I'll just float along with the waves of the ocean
There's no time to see where we're going
Ooooo, the plan is already in motion

If I take a breath, and let go of the reigns
Do you still think everything will turn out the same?