Reservation Guilt Trip
Bastard kid immaculate
With the facts I spit I packaged it
Captioned it with the coolest deep maneuvers
To enact the test mastered it
Passed it out it's tantamount
To classics now
My pedigree's ahead of me
Young graduate with caps and gowns
I utilize my English
In pursuit of my relinquished soul
They took it from my ancestors
And stole it from my spirits glow
Now I'm out to take it back
I know y'all all relate to that
I ain't simply fussing bruh
I'm only stating basic facts
Style lax wild cats
With stacks that stretch a mile back
Smile glad riled rants
My map's gone make a proud man
Now I stand to be a
Shining example of all I can be
Cause I focused on the good
And made the most of all the bad things
Sadly the modern day boarding school
Produced a strong dad
Cause the Foster care system
Ensured I didn't take the same path
Sometimes tough situations
Translate to good things
We say that we're the voiceless
But I'll ensure the hood sings
The reservation and the city
Express of our dispossession
I ain't truly proud of either
But it's south side until the heavens
Just below the cities ether
No matter what your locale
From mid-west reservations
To inner cities in So Cal
The no pal
We won't help ya no way no how
Mindset of oppressors
Is prevalent it won't slow now
So what I got to do is
Take what they give me and multiply
To alter my position
Envision a place with duller skies the bullet buys
Supplied with government rations
My people mastered the art
Of making Survival food happen
They took a tub of lard a bag of flour
Sprinkled in some red power
What ya got is fry bread
The Modern food we all devour
And it's sorrow
Spud on a stick Epidemic
It can make us diabetic
But it still gets us connected
It makes the family kinetic as one
We gone still taste it with Buds
It makes up for lack of nutrition
By building relationships up
Sure you're right our new traditions
Are far from flawless propositions
But I'm a keep with new tradition
And use it to further my position
Flip this English into dollars
Reach the pockets of white scholars
Rocking shows inside the college
Food for thought is polished knowledge
Brought it with for college kids
Impressed by it like college chicks
Bodies thick, want the stick
I gives a ish if you liken this to Vicodin
Just a drug, just a thug please learn to love
I judge myself to hush them up
Cause I'm the one who bears the brunt
Man what y'all want
I've learned to trudge lightly
When judging others' standing
Cause my past would've got me banished
By traditional justice standards
How do I manage? I don't know
All I know is that man can grow
Some mistakes I might take to the grave
But now I behave and that's the glow
For those who don't deserve to learn
Deserve chances to earn their word
If they ruin them let them burn
Maybe, if they lack concern
Until that line's clearly crossed
I can't be one to crucify
How could I when I've deeply hurt
So many lives without losing mine
To anyone I've done wrong
Who's listening to this track
I sincerely apologize
I wish that I could take it back but I can't
I feel guilt I feel remorse I feel that
And I hope you find the slightest peace
In hearing I'm a changed man
Cause I am, yes I am
A product of my environment
A victim of the system
From birth to retirement
Please, please just listen
I promise I've inquired it
It's been written in my system
From birth to enlightenment
I didn't come into the world a bad man
I came in a bright aura like all babies do
But I was birthed in a earth
Resembling a trash can
And I learned all the horror
Like all babies do
So when I say I'm a victim of the system
I'm not trying to detract blame
But if you're still here and you're still listening
That is not how I came
It was learned and it's been owned
It was burned and now I'm home
And I'm thankful to have been able
To learn from my mistakes and change
Rather than being shot or locked and chained
Only to be further displaced
If I could I'd apologize to your face
But I don't know if I can so this is the least I could do