Family / Ego

FAMILY

The problem was never the drugs
I’m calling, i’m calling you never pick up
I was a thug like way back in the day
Making a statement, put back in ya place
That was the payment i made
Losing my friends, i’m alone in this place
I was the problem, it’s always been me
So nothing been bothering me
I am the reason that i never sleep
I am the reason that i never eat
I was just falling apart and you was just following me
Following me, i let you drown in the creek
You took my pills that made you just OD
You’d probably be better off burying me
I was supposed to be dead in my teens
But now i just suffering dead in my dreams

I don’t see my ways
In my own face
I don’t see my ways

God was there when you cried
THE LIGHT
Looking up, here comes a sign
THE LIGHT
Follow the footsteps and follow
THE LIGHT
You said i’m wrong, and you turn off
THE LIGHT
I see the pain that i cause in
THE LIGHT
I pray to God that she shows me
THE LIGHT
MAYBE IM WRONG AND MAYBE
YOURE RIGHT
Watch over
My brother my sister
My uncle, my mother
My father, grandmother
Grandfather, my cousin
My auntie, my lover
My pastor, my shooters
My dealer, my plug
My side bitch, and my main
And all of my friends
Even my enemies
Watch over them
Even my enemies
All my fake friends
Even my enemies
Even my ex
Even my… even my..

I was there when you left (oou)
Watching you go, took my breath (oou)
I was only like 10 (oou)
It’s inside of my head (oou)
Calling you, calling you back (oou)
Never gon’ answer me back (oou)
That what made me what i am (oou)
That what made me what i am (oou)

I pray to God for my cousin Josh
For keeping him safe and for keeping him sane
I pray to God for my brother Abe
You keep him on path and away from the grave
I pray for grandma she up in the sky
Watching me over while i try not cry
Thank God for keeping my family alive
Keeping my family alive

EGO

I’ve been this way since sixteen
Get out the way of what i really need
Too many dreams that i, i can barely breathe
Look at the things that i, i can achieve

Kiss me, please look in my eyes
Kiss me, tell me that i’m fine
Use me, use me, use me

I’ve been this way since sixteen
Get out of the way, of what i really need
Too many dreams that i, i can barely breathe
Look at the things that i, i can achieve
And it’s been a minute
Since that heart on my sleeve
So narcissistic, it doesn’t hurt for you to leave
Look into my eyes and tell me
What do you believe?
How can you?, perceive the truth
And say you miss me?

And i know
That i make mistakes
And i know
That i’ll never change
And i know
That you’ll run away
And i know
My ego isn’t safe
Oh lord
Please show me a sign
Oh lord
Beam me to your light
Of course
My ego isn’t right
Oh lord
Please don’t end my… (life)