Cold Spell

[Verse]
My hands are trembling from the cold spell
Light matches, now the ice melt
Body so sore, all the bruises swell
Bones chattering, they don't feel well
I want it to end, but don't want to visit Hell
I'll just write a letter, send it through the mail
Hey God, I don't enjoy Earth, get me out of here
Life on earth has become a routine of pain
Kind of ironic for me to say
For I have a lot, more than most
But that does not change the fact that my heart is cold
I try to understand еmotion, or I pretend to try
Does that makе me psycho, or just impolite
Frost in my mind, brain freezes when I have to be honest
Pathological lying is easier than reflecting on it
Eventually lies become my reality
I altered events in my own memory
The original slates are destroyed completely
My past friends are all deleted
Make me remember and feel defeat
It's too late to begin a new sheet
I have too many strikes to repeat
No one wants a screw up on board
Call to my God, wonder what he has in store
He can't just leave me in this state
There has to be a way to improve fate
He couldn't of just abandoned me
He's probably in Heaven doing important things
That what I choose to believe
Does he even feel any pity
I've had enough of suffering, I want to escape
But every time I try, I am laid to waste
Is this cycle ever going to end?
Every time I'm about to break it, it restarts again
Back to square one, back to the beginning
It's like he doesn't want to see me winning
It's like this is a challenge of my will
Well you've won, just collect your kill

[Outro]
Darkness has descended upon me