Thirst

I hate the things
That I know will bring
Pleasure but also pain that I'll use over and over again
And I'll ignore what's best
My body calling for rest
It's the demons I have faith in they know where the fun begins

And I hate my thirst
You know I've always loved the worst
It's a cancer
It's a cancer
It's a cancer

I'll cut the hearts of my lovers
Who want me to be like the others
I don't want someone who's sane I don't want to play those games
And I laugh at everyone
As they worship the rain and sun
I don't care what I need I just want to feed

And I hate my thirst
You know I've always loved the worst
It's a cancer
It's a cancer
It's a cancer

I can feel it in my system
Flooding all of my wisdom
Until there's nothing I can see
Until I've lost all my empathy
Once it's won the war for my will
Sanity versus all the thrills
It takes me down into a binge
Where my dreams become unhinged
And I soak in all the pleasure
That promises to last forever
But then it goes away and dies
Leaving me open so I can't hide
In a land that is made to abuse
Burn and rape as it chooses too
So I fall into my thirst again
A thirst so deep it will never end

I hate this thirst
It's a cancer, I'm a cancer