All My Life

I see the writing on the wall
Sometimes it's clear to me
But the venom takes control
I'm always set up just to fall
Because I know where I am weak
Afraid to crawl out of this hole

It's all coming back
It follows me until I slowly fade to black
So afraid to light the match
Illuminating everything I know I lack

I don't know if I can do this right
I need to hear your voice tonight

All my life I feel like I've been carrying a weight
Dragging down my spirit as my bones begin to break
I'm desperate to find the answers
Cut it out
Kill the cancer
Infecting everyone around us
Kill the virus
Lеt it die

It's not who we are
It's not who wе want to be

It's hard to trust at all these days
Sometimes I let myself believe
Until eventually it slips away
Afraid it's written on my face
As if I wore it on my sleeve
And now it cannot be erased

Always wrestling this mental state
Trapped again I can't escape
I'm tangled in the mess I've made
Unhealthy habits become practice
Halfway laughing halfway damaged
Good intentioned bad decisions
Left me in these existential self revisions

All my life I feel like I've been carrying a weight
Dragging down my spirit as my bones begin to break
I'm desperate to find the answers
Cut it out
Kill the cancer
Infecting everyone around us
Kill the virus
Let it die

It's not who we are
It's not who we want to be
Anymore

What will I find
Inside of me
When the time comes
And I see
What I find
(Kill the cancer, kill the virus)
Inside of me
When the time comes
And I see

All my life I feel like I've been carrying a weight
Dragging down my spirit as my bones begin to break
I'm desperate to find the answers
Cut it out
Kill the cancer
Infecting everyone around us
Kill the virus
Let it die

It's not who we are
It's not who we want to be
Anymore