Last December

I started a fire in my backyard
Burned all the things that made a spark in my life
Guitar by my side
And I wrote out my regrets in full
Made meaning of the words I wrote
But the flame burned out
I'll have to try again

When it hit eight I went outside
The wind was strong
Had to put up a fight
I let the flame ignite
But as I scribbled on the battered page
And tears were rolling down my face
I burned my guitar

I'm trying to remember
How many gigs did I play last Decembеr?
I'm trying to remember
Whеn was the last time that I sat there next to you?

I started singing but I didn't have a voice
Melodies fell lost to me as I stumbled through the woods
The leaves were crushed beneath my feet
The pitter-patters piled into a speech
But I trekked through the lost and lonely land
My hands have been stripped of my joy and all my compassion
If I can't play a tune out loud and make a sound this journey has to end

I'm trying to remember
How many gigs did I play last December
I'm trying to remember
When was the last time that I sat there next to you

O-o-oh last December!
O-o-oh last December!

I'm not a coward
And I won't shake off that you said that
You act like it means nothing at all
Am I imagining this all?
What's a real way to face the world?
Don't I just turn around and regret the flame I burned?

This year has not been treating me right
Been stuck at home and I've been having many restless nights
But I know if I get lonely, I can build a fire in my backyard
Some call it peace of mind, but I see it from a different view
What's a battered notebook on the ground gonna do?
My guitar's already gone, throw the notebook in the fire too

I'm trying to remember
How many gigs did I play last December?
I'm trying to remember
When was the last time that I sat there next to you?