bayou

I don't have the drive
To lie to myself when I cry
Where will you be in my mind?
If I go blind, will you be my eyes?

Or bury alive, this body of mine
Take with you home
This love that we tried
A feeling denied
I'm sick of being misplaced
Misunderstood when faced

It rains all the time back where we lived
Wasting my years, trying to save what we had
It's all in my head
Washing away, let me shower in shade

I'm a flower at heart
Grey in the soul that I can't take apart
Making of the mess of the person at large
There's a hole in my heart that you can't fill at all

I can't feel my hands, way too numb
I don't know if I say it loud
Will it help with all this?
Rush in my head that'll crack me open

I'm tired hoping, no more coping
Caffeine, dope and
Lot of "What ifs" and "Maybes" forcing
A lot of issues that'll cut me open

It rains all the time back where we lived
Wasting my years trying to save what we had
It's all in my head
Washing away, let me shower in shade

It rains all the time back where we lived
Wasting my years trying to save what we had
It's all in my head
Washing away, let me shower in shade

Bury me on a Sunday
Too numb, too numb to stay
Wanna die alone when all things burn down
All things burn down