anxious

I'm high strung and I'm anxious
Can't wait till I'm famous
Why would my words matter, it's not like people will play this
So I guess it's back to basics
This is ground zero
Trap myself inside of comics cause this world don't have a hero
Yes, I'm high, strong and I'm anxious
Cause this world is always changing
I find myself trapped in situations that I'm placed in
I'm always late to trends, I never keep my friends
Even though I know how to swim I always drown in the deep end
I never thought I'd get this far
I never thought I'd live this long
I never thought I'd be my dad
I never thought I'd be my mom
Never thought I'd have people say that they love my music
Never thought I'd get over the kids that called me stupid
I never thought I'd save a life
Off of all this shit I sit and write
When life's a mess and I'm depressed
And suicide becomes the best advice I give myself
Fuck my health, I do not matter
Lordy, lordy, send a prayer
I can't climb up heaven's ladder
I never thought I'd have to help bury one of my friends
My sanity's getting stretched and the light's beginning to dim
There's lines I know I can't cross but they're becoming so thin
That when I finally sit and think the room starts to spin
There's so many voices
There's so many choices
There's so many places
There's so many faces
That when I kill myself in an instant, they ain't looking so dangerous
But I can't do that yet you see, I'm so scared of dying nameless
That's when I pick up this stainless and I start counting them bullets
I cock back, it's empty, so I begin to reload it
Now I'm losing my focus
As the clip moving in motion
Put it up to my temple, click, click, and then I unload it
Then I wake up, it's bright
There's a dude with a beard
Who said I wasted my life
Cause I was living through fear
I ain't serving him right
So now I'm paying the price
I'm either burning or reborn just to relive this life
In a childhood like mine with no say or control
You start to grow hostile bout this life that you think that you're owed
So I micromanage everything
I dot my I's and cross my T's
I have to cause I'm a man
Or at least that's what I'm supposed to be
I never thought I'd get this far I never thought I'd live this long
I never thought my life would be placed Inside of all of these songs
I never wanted to breathe or wanted to live
I didn't ask to exist
I didn't ask for this shit
I'm high strung and I'm anxious
Can't wait till I'm famous
Why would my words matter, it's not like people will play this
So I guess it's back to basics
This is ground zero
Trap myself inside of comics cause this world don't have a hero
Yes, I'm high, strong and I'm anxious
Cause this world is always changing
I find myself trapped in situations that I'm placed in
I'm always late to trends, I never keep my friends
Even though I know how to swim I always drown in the deep end